How can I help my suicidal thoughts?

I am concerned about you and hope you can promise me that you won't hurt yourself. Get yourself to the nearest behavioral health center. You mentioned Mark Starr...from Bolingbrook? If so, Linden Oaks is close by for help with your suicidal thoughts. http://www.edward.org/body.cfm?id=16. They are open 24/7. Speaking from experience, If you go into the ER it takes a long time. Go straight into Linden Oaks and tell them you would like to talk to someone.